December 9: Hanging in there!

Hangin in there. That’s how things feel right now as the wait continues. Today I had more appointments, more scans, and another biopsy. I had a big moment where defeat set in a bit and I was mad. I called Dave and reminded him how unfair this feels. Sitting in the subway level of Mayo yet another day after seeing this terrible cancer on the screen multiple times this morning and I just wanted to be done. Not to mention I had just talked with the wig store about that process and I had to grieve my hair for a moment. None of this is easy and it feels like a test at many turns. I looked up and saw a sweet little girl, probably 2 or so, with an IV attached, nose tube in, and I paused thinking about this little one going through treatments. Perspective. I reminded myself how lucky I am to be where I am even if it sucks! So here are the positives! First big one was that we had cookies day Sunday when I got back from Rochester appointments. It was a double mixer day with all my favorite people! We also had a fun weekend of Christmas activities and saw Wicked!! 1. I am able to travel a short distance to receive the best care, even if it is almost daily right now! At least I had Saturday off and mom came with me Sunday! 2. They finally used my left arm for draws today and my bruised up right got a much needed break! 3. I had some research appointments today and scored FREE PARKING on a 7:30-3:30 day! 4. My biopsy team was very kind and gave me lots of extra ice packs to get through my day! Extra bonus that I only have to do one more biopsy! 5. I remembered my big scarf so I could hide the ice packs bulging from my shirt! 6. My Amazon account knows what I’m looking for and suggested some cute head caps. Still on the lookout for some local scarves! I have my moments and they are not all pretty, but finding a few positives gives me hope. I hope you find positives today as well! #myjourney #breastcancerawareness #earlydetection

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