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June 17th: Scariest Week So Far

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Wednesday when I had meds !   Major update!  Get ready for a long post.  Thanks for following along!  On June 4th I went in for what would have been my 2nd round of 4 in my last cycle of chemo.  I was ready to go and even though symptoms had been tough with this cycle, I knew I was close to completion!  I had a standard Echo test on my heart that morning and when I arrived at my appointment I was so disappointed to learn that I would not be able to be treated as there were some concerns with my heart. My ejection fraction, which deals with how your heart is working and how much blood can pump with each heartbeat. Since mine had fallen below 50%, I could not be safely treated and we needed to pause treatment. One of my chemo drugs is what caused the heart issues. I would be lying if I said, I wasn’t completely disappointed. However, I knew that I needed to deal with the heart the issues first. My doctor got me in to see a cardiologist on ...

November 21: The Waiting

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NOVEMBER 21, 2024 THE WAITING.... It has been almost three weeks since this all started. There have been ups and down and I am anxiously awaiting upcoming appointments. The waiting is one of the most challenging parts of my journey so far. I have experienced this as I watched others go through this as well. I am trying to do my best to stay calm, but my anxiety is taking over as I continue the wait. My best advice it to find things to keep you busy and fine some inner peace. I am incredibly thankful for many people in my life who are supporting me and my family. Tonight, Harper and I were able to go downtown with great friends who can always make us smile and laugh. The tremendous support as I wait is incredible. I love that my community wrapped me up and helped me to disconnect as I wait. We hit up some great shops and someone even gave me a beautiful breast cancer pen. I am blown away! I also was able to get my pink hair extensions updated and even added some for Harper too! My...

December 31: First Treatment!

The morning started with an IV of Benadryl, a steroid, and anti nausea meds. The Benadryl was a large dose of which made me feel super weird and I couldn’t stay awake for most of the treatment. After the initial meds they did three different chemo drugs. Most of it went well. One did give me some burning and arm pain, but the nurses quickly helped with that. I put on my fashionable cold cap, mittens, and slippers to keep cold during one of the chemo drugs. This helps with neuropathy. I know that the harder days could be coming and was warned by the nurses that day 3 or 4 could be the toughest. The nurses were incredibly thorough, caring, and supportive. They all made sure the morning went smoothly and I appreciate them so much! Headed home for a nap! Thanks for all the prayers and kind words! My support system is amazing! #myjourney #breastcancerawareness #earlydetection

December 30: Tomorrow is the BIG day!

Tomorrow is the BIG day! I spent the day in Rochester at Gonda 10, my home away from home, doing final appointments with my fabulous team. We are set and I am happy to be getting started. The tumor has grown about 1.5 centimeters on both edges, so I’m ready to start attacking it. I know the road will be long and will be challenging at times, but I’m lucky to be surrounded by the best family and friends! When reviewing chemo side effects, the nurse looked at me and said, “I want you to take this one in, you just allow yourself to rest. You are a teacher and a mom and most women need to be reminded of this so I will say it twice, make sure you allow yourself to rest.” I know this one is hard for me, but I will take it seriously as I work to beat this and heal. We have reread the book pictured over the past few days with our kids and they are as ready as they can be. Thank you to all who are watching out for them (and Dave too:). Lots of emotions at our house! Harrison’s biggest questio...

December 29: Christmas

Christmas was perfect this year! Even with a few trip mishaps, it was still the best! We celebrated at home early and then went on vacation to Orlando to celebrate as a family for our first Christmas since dad passed. We shared many stories, laughs, and memories! I am focusing on the gift of three“C’s” this Christmas. - Clear scans on my most recent biopsy!! - Chemo scheduled to start this Tuesday! - Cherished memories with family! I am anxious to start, but so ready to kick cancer! Coming up this week: - Today’s task - wig shopping - Monday a big day of appointments at Mayo - Tuesday 1st round of chemo I hope you all made memories over the holiday season and had time with those you love! #myjourney #breastcancerawareness #earlydetection

December 18: Week 7

Over the past week there were more appointments, a quick getaway with a friend, and a big step with my hair! I had to do another biopsy for an additional spot that was found through my MRI. It was much different as it was an MRI guided biopsy rather than the ultrasound like the last two. This one was quite a bit more uncomfortable and super sore after, but now it’s done! I’m thankful to have it over with and for nurses that are so kind and understanding! I also had another ultrasound to check my gallbladder as they found it to be inflamed on my echo test. We will see the results of that in the coming days. Lastly, I was concerned about the cancer mass getting larger as we wait for treatments to start. My team at Mayo is so awesome and understanding. I messaged and then snuck me in for a quick check to measure things. It has grown, but not at a rate that is too alarming to them. So thankful for this team and their second to none care! I am grateful I was able to get away for a few da...

December 9: Hanging in there!

Hangin in there. That’s how things feel right now as the wait continues. Today I had more appointments, more scans, and another biopsy. I had a big moment where defeat set in a bit and I was mad. I called Dave and reminded him how unfair this feels. Sitting in the subway level of Mayo yet another day after seeing this terrible cancer on the screen multiple times this morning and I just wanted to be done. Not to mention I had just talked with the wig store about that process and I had to grieve my hair for a moment. None of this is easy and it feels like a test at many turns. I looked up and saw a sweet little girl, probably 2 or so, with an IV attached, nose tube in, and I paused thinking about this little one going through treatments. Perspective. I reminded myself how lucky I am to be where I am even if it sucks! So here are the positives! First big one was that we had cookies day Sunday when I got back from Rochester appointments. It was a double mixer day with all my favorite peopl...